Letting go to embrace life
As I lie on my yoga mat, I notice the words “letting go” arise
I wouldn’t have been able to offer myself this phrase at the beginning of the year, but these words absolutely encapsulate the year that has been
I recall journaling at the end 2021, naming the shifts I wanted to make
Upon reflection, I realise now I was setting myself up to navigate this year of transition
How powerful it is to name what we may not even realise we are seeking
Taking time to journal and discover what is there beneath consciousness has always been a powerful tool for me
In recent times, I have struggled to make the necessary space to journal
Perhaps linked to the wonderings of self-worth, I know the part of me that can de-prioritise self
I have known this part of my being more often, this past year
Change can be like that … destabilising
There has been more space to feel the pain of absence, as aspects have dropped away
But now on this last day of 2022, this also is a part of the letting go
Letting go of the barricades, making space for the pain, as the doorway to love opens
In my conscious mind I had thought the letting go for 2022, was simply about untangling from a business relationship that I wanted to simplify, letting go of my children as they grew, letting go of what I had known it was to be a woman as I entered menopause, but perhaps it is all of these things and so much more
As I let go, space opens up
I remind myself that spaces can be easily filled
What I fill this space with is up to me
Intent is powerful
Feeling into the potential of opening to the doorway of love, my being expands
As I age, I am reminded how special it is to have life
These moments with my love, my children, special friends, on this beautiful earth
This is what I cherish
Feeling happens in the moment
Not yesterday or tomorrow
"How do I want feel?" I ponder
Aligned, alive, joyous, intended, energised, connected, meaningful, purposeful, loved, loving, present
As we feel we heal
Ritual is a part of how we help ourselves acknowledge shifts in our lives
From experience, I know the shifts in my life that have not been openly acknowledged, feel less complete
Our witnessing of one another is an important component of ritual
So on this New Year’s Eve, I want to thank you for witnessing my ritual of reflection and intention
In 2023
I can wait to be acknowledged or I can acknowledge myself
I can wait to be loved or I can love myself
I can wait to feel enough or I can simply feel enough as I am
I can wait for others to give me what I want or I can name what I need
I am now my own mother
It is up to me
To care for myself as I want to be cared for
To love myself as I want to be loved
To nourish myself as I want to be nourished
To give as I want to give
This year of 2022 has been about letting go
2023 is about embracing my new held space
It is time
For me to own it
For me to take responsibility
For me to share my voice
For me to live the life I want
The more I show up for self the more I can show up for other
In 2023, I am showing up
Sending you love as always
Sarah xx
